tunes:  tbs "cute without an E"...acoustic(my favorite)
mood:  sad
day:  just another day


This world is full of too much hate.  seriously, why are people SO mean to each other?...its like people search for something to hate in you. and they always seem to find it in me.

now dont get mad for me writing this, im not bashing on you, im telling how i feel. and i will list names.

Ryan, i felt as if i have been rude or ignoring you for a while now, so i thought itd be nice if i apologized to you for my poor actions. and i did so, and needless to say you were an ASS about it. ayou had to say 'yeah i kno u have' and 'ill forgive but never forget'..wtf...i could have been mean and not apologized, but i was nice and did, and its like u didnt appreciate it. i kno that u said that u had been the same way, but im sorry least i wasnt an ass about it. im so fucking sorry for everything, good god. but i get sick of you talking about ur damn band and everything. i dont want to hear about it every 5 minutes. and yet again, at matts you didnt have much to say to me, and its not like u EVER do, now is it.

Perdue. what can i say. we dont see each other much anymore cause of class changes and whatnot, but i figured we would talkmore then what we do. i guess not. today u made the comment 'hey i havent seen u all day.' bull shit u said something to me this morning. no offense but i feel as if i have been replaced with Smitty or something. we never see each other or hang out anymore. and when u ask to hang out u want a ride somewhere. im sorry but that hurts. im not down with those kinds of things. prehaps its the jelous thing we have discussed before. probaly is. i mean i look up to you with everything u do, your smart, you play sports, you have plenty of friends, and the best boyfriend ever. whats NOT to be jelous of. im not afraid to say im jelous of you, cause thats how i feel. but i wish you could make time for me. i wish it was back to old times.

Jesse. hmm the thought of you makes me so happy, u just dont get it. sometimes i feel as if im in your way or annoying you. im sorry if i do. seems we havent talked AS much as we normally do. prehaps your starting to see how i act or how i am. im aware i complain alot, sometimes I cant help it. i kno your not into that kind of shit. but you seem so happy all the time. i wish i were more like you. you never let things get to you, or not much bothers you, you always look at the good side of things. your such a great guy, that doesnt deserve me. ill leave it at that.