Entry: 'Take this broken heart and make it right' Friday, January 23, 2004



tunes:  Matchbook Romance 'My eyes burn'
mood:  sad or mad, take ur pick
day: shit.


im listening to Matchbook Romance right now at school. i feel so alone. this sucks badly. dont ask what it is, i just have this feeling of sadness all the time. i dont know how to make it better or go away.

i sit here and read other peoples journals. they make me sick. they all have this GREAT WONDERFUL person whom they love so much. they have everything that i want. i dont get it, why cant it be me that has that one special person. why.

seems as something good comes along, then it gets fucked up. always. ive never felt so alone in my whole life. psh life, what is it to me anymore anyways. nothing, nothing at all.
will it ever be anything after this?


..Their keeping us apart...
all i ever wanted was you.

love me. someone. anyone.

   3 comments

Emily
January 24, 2004   10:08 PM PST
 
oh my god.
Smitty
January 24, 2004   05:02 PM PST
 
emily i know exactly how you feel. i know when i say that you probaby think 'pfft,' but it's true. you just want someone to pick you out of a crowd and to want to be with you for a change. you start to think that maybe you could get their attention if you died, that maybe then they'd love you for a change. the feeling of solitude won't dissapear no matter how many new friends/boyfriends you meet. you could be loved by a thousand hearts and still think 'oh please just one more, then i'll be complete.' i've known lonely people with hundreds of friends, and content people with two. you have to realize--we all do--that loneliness has nothing to do with other people, but rather more to do with yourself and what you make out of social situations; it's all psychological. i hope you start feeling better and this didn't come off as one of those overly long, pointless little speeches that make you want to punch me. bye.
Jen
January 23, 2004   04:53 PM PST
 
im sorryy emily ....... eat a taco believe me it helps. hha. no wait. better yet.. eat a burrito.. mmmmmmm. holy cow sweet mot her of jesklus.. i gotta man.. peace.

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