*oasis 'wonderwall'
okay i lied in the last entry. i do like the snow.
battle of the bands tomorrow. at the icehouse. im pretty excited.
okay, you all know i come stright to my journal when anything happens in life, cause im that much of a loser. so heres what i came to talk about.
.Matt Patrick.
as you all know, he's like my best friend. and well thats all he's ever been. prehaps its time to see if me and him could possibly be an 'item'....after all, i have been alone for so long i have thought about everything i want in a relationship and what i want in a guy. and of course, he fits 3/4's of it.
but....(and yes theres a 'but')
he just got out of a relationship. seems he's never really over another girl, until he finds another. one after another. and then theres always drama. drama hmmm what a word, its something i dont like in RELATIONSHIPS.
i know everything about him. every wrong thing hes done in relationships. he dated my best friend, so i know what kind of stuff went on and whatnot. i know there was a possibility of 'cheating' goin on with her and other girlfriends. i dont want that. no one does. but in 'relationships' there comes hurt, and pain. and i know nothing is ever going to be perfect, or MY WAY. thens theres the risk of loosing my best friend, and boyfriend. but im going to take a chance. a chance to see if Matt's the one ive been waiting/looking for. we will never know if we don't try.
but the word boyfriend i cringe at the sound of it. theres so much hurt that comes with it. and so much meaningless situations. Situations your not supposed to go through at the age of 15. you dedicate all your time and everything we have to that *one person, and then it leads to breakup, or heart break.
the word love and relationships is nothing but scary to me.....actually, its all scary to me. its all so new to me
<33 advice. please. someone. anyone.
